I want my next relationship to be incredible. I don’t want to be comfortable. I want to do great things with my significant other. I want to achieve goals with my man. I want a partnership. Where we’re able to communicate our ideas to each other. Build things. Support each other at events. I want…
Anon, I know life is shitty /= but it gets better, it doesn’t end here. Even if it’s hard to see that right now. I may not know your situation or what you’ve been through or who you are but I do understand. I know it’s hard to find a reason to keep on fighting, to live or even to survive when you’re in such a dark place and nothing seems possible. But it is. I know you’re tired, exhausted, and there are those times probably like right now, where you feel like you can’t go on. And you probably have those negative voices eating at you, telling you that there’s no other way out or that no one will care or that you’re alone or that you’re not strong enough and/or other things. You know what, those negative voices are wrong. You matter. You are strong. You will get through this. There’s this phrase that I always tell myself when I feel like I’m in that hole again and hopefully it will help you as it did me. If you can’t find a reason to live for yourself, then let your friends, family, your favorite blog and/or someone you look up to be you reason, let them be your reason. ♥
There are options out there, if you need someone to talk to or need help: The National Suicide Prevention
you can chat w/ someone 24/7 online or call (1-800-273-8255)
deleting old harmful words out of your vocabulary can be tough but take the opportunity to find new, better words to convey your feelings for the benefit of everyone
I’ve only blacked out once and I finally understand why no one wants to do it again. That once is just enough. But is it normal to feel like you never want to drink again? Before transferring, I never really drank. Truth is, I was afraid to. I was afraid I’d be just like my dad. But after 3 nights ago, I wonder if I turned out worse than what I had feared.